yvelyn.

Today is a good day! Productive shopping + good food :D Makes me happy!! In a super good mood :) Sigh, how I wish I could freeze this moment of my life and live in happiness forever. When good days like these are here, I know bad things are bound to happen soon :( I am always troubled about something at some point of my life, always worried about something. And that's me. :/

I kinda feel a little excited about school. Just a teeny weeny bit. A large part of me still doesn't want to move on to a new environment. I hate change. Change means having to adapt and I'm no good at it. New environment, new faces, new lifestyle.... Just the thought of making new friends all over again is tiring enough :( Sometimes, I really find making new friends in a new environment mentally exhausting and stressful. Oh well, shall not fret about that now. University would also mean the need to shop for more clothes. I'd rather school uniforms so I wouldn't have to stress about what to wear everyday. Such a hassle. My closet is filled with clothes, but it's always "There's nothing to wear!" I hope I'm not the only one worrying about this :P

On a more random note, I miss Cambodia! Miss those nights that we'd sit at the balcony to watch the stars in the night sky, making wishes upon shooting stars, gossiping. And sometimes I'd wonder how the kids are doing... Should feel blessed because many kids there really don't have a lot in terms of material needs/wants. What sucks is that, they never had a choice. I could just as easily have been born there too. I wonder if they know that there's a much different, better world out there? Probably not. Wanna go back soon!!

Ok time for beauty sleeeeeeeeeeeeep. 

People are always gonna disappoint

So many thoughts running through my head.
Can't even string them into words 

:(

Strangely pissed. Just changed one of my phone's contacts to "Jerk" with a million angry faces! >:( HAH.

I SWEAR I'M GONNA DIE FROM BOREDOM SOON.

Everyone is SUPER busy with work/internships/tuition stuffs and here I am wasting my life away just like a person without any purpose (how do they live their lives anyway!? :O)... The freedom I have now is actually suffocating :x AND it gives me a lot of time to overthink things which is super bad. I need a job now!!!!!! I guess I only have myself to blame for being so picky about which job to choose? Things I consider are the pay (obviously), commitment period, location (preferably not the east), nature of job (NO cleaning/dishwashing, NO jobs that require excessive standing around or those that require you to be exposed to the sun). So yeah, my pickiness (?) makes it hard to find a job. Was hoping to work at some kids-friendly environment like Build-A-Bear workshop or something but the store manager was horribly unfriendly and hung up on me once I told her I couldn't commit for 4 months (their requirement), how rude! >:( I love love loooove kids (with the exception those SUPER NAUGHTY ones, and the ones that go around screaming in your ears), especially those little boys. But since I'm unwanted at BAB, I shall just patiently wait for other job offers. Give me a job, I need $$$. I literally have to close my eyes/look away from the ATM machine each time I go to withdraw money, because I srsly don't want to find out how poor I'm becoming. How did the balance in my bank account get halved so quickly anyway? :X Gosh!

But now that I'm moving on, does that mean I've finally made up my mind? What if it's the wrong decision?  

I've been wanting this since forever. Thank You.

Isn't this cute? 

Had I known it would come to this, I'd rather you not have said those words

I am waiting...